Yesterday I turned 48. And I believe I have turned a corner.
I have always joked that I subscribe to the philosophy from the old Oil of Olay ad that said…
“I don’t intend to grow old gracefully. I’m going to fight it every step of the way.”
But I’ve changed my mind. I don’t mean that I’m going to stop covering my gray hair or stop using $40 eye cream to diminish my “smile lines,” but I have decided to stop feeling like I am in a race against time and remind myself that every season of life has it’s own beauty.
I remember a funny conversation I had with Danny when I was pregnant with our first child. It’s even funnier now but we laughed about it then. We were discussing his job. He was doing route sales for a company called SafetyKleen. He made a really good salary for being just out of college but he didn’t see a future for himself there. During the conversation he said, “I feel like it’s time to make a change. You know, I’m not getting any younger.” It made me laugh out loud because he was only 22!
We realized how silly it sounded for a 22 year old to feel the pressure of aging but I think no matter how old we are we are always at risk of feeling like we are racing the clock.
The truth is no matter how old we are, we are not getting any younger. If I am going to allow myself to feel any urgency from that truth it is going to be the urgency to live more in the moment. It’s the only time that we can be sure of.
I love this Message version of Matthew 6:34
“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.”
What is God doing in your life right NOW that you can give your entire attention to?